And I had a wonderful "ah-hah" moment there that I needed right then.
Here's the song that did it.
And I realized that I had been tricked into thinking I was immune. "I am good. I know how to avoid really bad things. I'll be fine on my own. I don't have to worry about the adversary."
And with those thoughts, he crept back in to my life. I didn't realize it until tonight. Until I was freed from that weight, I didn't realize what I was carrying.
Now I understand the war. And I don't intend to stop fighting this time. Ever.
