I didn't really think about it until she brought it up and then I realized how interesting the growth pattern was.
I had been writing to her about how I'd been dealing with my fainting spells and said the following paragraph:
When it started happening at first, I was really afraid and had the instinct to "hole up" in my room.
But then I took over and decided when it happens I'll hide, but otherwise I'll keep going.
And now I'm transitioning to the attitude that I don't even need to hide, just keep living and be smart about it where I can.
She brought it up and I realized that that attitude isn't so bad for most trials in life. You've gotta get a little scared to get smart, but then you've got to keep going. And some day, you really have to take the wisdom learned from the fear as well as the will to endure and put them together with who you want to be.
